Monday, January 18, 2010
Has it really been five years? I've been doing this for five years? In roughly a month I began my journey as MOM. That is frightening because I would think after doing this for that long I would feel a bit more confident with myself in this role. But the thing is...the variables keep changing.
Right when I think I have one of them figured out they change on me. New layers in their personalities emerge. Just the other night my husband confirmed my feelings, "I think I need to read that boy book again. (The Little Boy Book.) Seems like our oldest is changing and needing something more...more than just feeling loved, nurtured, and feeling secure."
Yep, he is right. Our soon-to-be-five-year-old is shifting again on us. There isn't anything baby or toddler left in him. He's all boy: this is a new frontier for us.
I was just feeling good about myself as a mom when it came to babies. I walk with confidence with my youngest on my hip. When he tries out his new found skill at temper tantrums I just laugh, remaining calm because I know this too shall pass. But this "boy" thing, this elementary school adventure we are about to embark on....this is new.
Our oldest continues his role of breaking us in. Our middle continues his role at helping us work out the kinks, and our youngest continues to reap the benefits. Birth order, a powerful thing. There is no real way to avoid it.